We are in counseling

I took out my marriage and hu t issues with cheating we are in counseling and our personal relationship is improviy. I still find myself crabinf the excitement of cheating. Is hard to find the emotional security b in need to be have sex with my husband. After so many hurt words and insults. It's hard to feel safe arpind him. He is working on his temper but isn't perfect. It's e just doesn't seem fair it have to I be perfect on my y cheating problem when he doesn't have to be with his emotional problems.