I only wanted to 'commit' to men that were unable to commit

I took a long time before I recognized my own fear of commitment. I had many times relationships that were short and dramatic with men that didn't want a relationship with me. They kept letting me down. And as soon as I was almost over it, they came back for one night of fun. And I was always the one that was desperately longing for a relationship. So who would've thought I was the one with fear of commitment?!?

It took me a long time before I could see that I only wanted to 'commit' to men that were not able to commit. When I met a very sweet guy, he would never catch my eye. Friends could not stop me or explain it to me. Their explanations sounded more like judgments to me.

It took many years of tears and therapy to get out of this pattern. Now I am together with a super sweet man for 2,5 years already. We are very fond of each other.